Mortal Sin

at last
I meet my enemy face to face,
look straight into his eyes, cold and swollen.
they see through me
they know my secrets
he knows my past
he is everything i hate
everything I've struggled against all these years
summed up by a nose, a chin, a mouth.
my fingers find holds around his neck
as my thumb embraces his windpipe
I suffocate him,
choke him,
kill him.
the same way he's been killing me
the same way he's made me live
the same way he's made me die
he opens his mouth
attempting to breathe
he can't.
I slowly murder him
as he sinks into unconsciousness
as I sink into unconsciousness
a mortal sin.
strangled myself before a mirror