I pretend that I don't care
I put on a mask that says I hate you all
And I do
Or at least I think I do
I've tried to convince myself for so long
I've almost succeeded
But it's hard sometimes, you know?
Sometimes I wish I could feel something
Sometimes I wish I didn't have to pretend
I wish I could be your friend
I wish I could just be myself
But that will never happen
Because I tried that before, didn't I?
You remember, don't you?
Or maybe you don't, I don't know
Maybe I'm just another nameless person to you
Yet another person you broke
Sure, I pretend it isn't true
I pretend you never meant anything to me
And you pretend I mean something to you now
But why? Why do you want me to give in?
So you can play me again?
Or so maybe this time we can really be friends?
Yeah right, forget it
I might not be the person I pretend I am
But I sure as hell don't need your pity friendship
You know, there was a time when you might have got me
But that time is over
And as much as I don't even want it to be true
Because I screwed up, and you screwed up
And everyone and everything in my life is screwed up
And nothing will change what they did or you did
But none of this matters, does it?
Because you can't even hear me now
And I'll never tell you
So you can go on in your world
Thinking I'm . . . whoever you want to
And I'll pretend I don't care
And that nothing matters to me
Let alone you
Hell, who cares anyway, right?
I sure don't