My Heart Will Go On
A/N: Okay, so, like, I, like, really, like, like, the, like, movie, like, Titanic, like? Now "like" looks really strange… Anyway…I like Titanic a lot lot lot, especially the song "My Heart Will Go On". If you haven't heard it, go listen to it. I decided to write a little bit of fiction about it. This has nothing to do with Titanic. If it did, it would be on But it ain't. You can put two and two together, no?
Dedication: To a dude at school I have a HUGE crush on, who shall remain nameless. Seriously, I've dreamed about him!
Kina fell backwards into her bed and stared up at the ceiling. In these past few hellish days, her ceiling had become one of her favorite things. One of the most comforting, anyway. She slowly closed her eyes, willed herself to sleep.
And then he came. In the dreams. Whenever she closed her eyes for more than a minute, they came. Awful dreams, of when he was still with her. Before he left, taking her heart with him.
Every night in my dreams, I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you go on
Far across the distance and spaces between us
You have come to show you go on.
This time, the dream was more comforting. This dream was of when they spent long summer days at the beach together, swimming, eating, ruling the boardwalk, playing soccer and baseball, camping, taking long walks right in the surf. To Kina, those days seemed to go on forever, in a good way of course. She was with him. Nothing could come between them. What could possibly go wrong? Then she remembered. Everything.
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
Even though he had left her hurting more than words could possibly say, he still held a special place in what was left of her heart. In all the life she still had left, Kina could never love or trust another the way she trusted him. He had left. Kina felt as though he had taken her soul with him. She was no one now. He was gone, but she was still there. Her body, anyway. It would take a long time before she threw herself so whole heartedly to someone, even if they appeared as special as him. But she would always remember him.
Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're gone.
Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on
Even though her eyes were closed, Kina still cried. Warm tears of hurt and frustration fell down the sides of her face, releasing everything she held inside her. How can I go on without him? He was my life, she thought. I have to. I'm here, he's not. I have to pick myself up and keep going. I'll never see him again.
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
I'll always love him, she thought, slowly opening her eyes. No matter what happens. Kina blinked back her tears, and slowly lifted her hand to the neckline of the gray Red Sox jersey that he had given her for her birthday, sixteen days before he fell asleep for the last time. Her hand slowly grasped the delicate silver chain that would always hang loosely from her neck. The tips of her fingers slid down the chain towards where the weight of the pendant was. Closing her eyes, she reached for the pendant and held it in her hands, running her fingertips over it, feeling its shape, visualizing it. The heart.
You're here, there's nothing to fear
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
mmp
Final Author's Note: I'm in a very angsty mood. I just watched Titanic. If watching Titanic doesn't make you angsty, I don't know what will.
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