It Doesn't Matter Now

It doesn't matter now;
That when you left;
I almost died.
That I fell to the floor;
And cried for hours.

It doesn't matter now;
That you never called.
You never wrote either.
I really wished you would've.

It doesn't matter now;
That when I hear them

Talk about you;
I wish that I'm deft.

It doesn't matter;
That when I told you
You ran away.
You ran so far away
That I was afraid
That you would get lost.

You were perfect.
You were something
That I thought was only real
In my dreams.

You seemed unaware
Of how I felt.
Even after I told you
I was afraid you didn't understand

It doesn't matter now;
That you did.
You weren't fooled
By my laugh.

It just...
It still matters to me.

A/N: sadly all of this has been pulled out of my heart and I still feel like crying.