You Told Me.

You told me to never give up.
You told me to never stop smiling.
You told me to never be afraid.
You told me to never make bad decisions.
You told me to never lie.

You told me to keep true to myself.
You told me to do the best I could
You told me to do what was right for me.

You told me everything.

You told me what had to be done with my life.
Told me every thing that had to be said and done.
From the schools I go to.
To the friends I have.

You told me everything.

Well guess what.

I stopped listening to the repeating record of what you told me years ago.

I've given up on things; mostly when it came to winning your approval.
I've stopped smiling for the most part.
There are still the few rare true smiles, the rest are fake.
I've been afraid of what I've lost, that I'll never get it back.
I've lied to protect myself from you.

I've always been true to myself.
I've always done my best.
I've always done what was right for me.

Even if you hate it.

In three months I will leave the prison that my home has become.
Leave you and the shackles you've chained me with.

I will leave.

I just pray that I can come back
And that you will welcome me.

I love you mom.