Desperation, apprehension, anger, fade.
Stripped now away, pretences made.
Searing pain, once frightfully strong,
Give way now with efforts, long.
Numbness breaching indestructible walls
Emptiness, apprehension, time stalls.

Set apart, a world alone,
Remembrance fades, of light that once shone.
Tip of the tongue, inconceivable thoughts.
Forgetfulness of what you once sought.
Unbidden ideas, revelation,
Not quite the way, you pictured salvation.

Sensing so easily, whatever you lack,
Yet now unable to gain it back.
Trepidation, uncertainty, hesitation
Lifetime of feelings, ideas, now past creation.
Shutting down willpower, life upside down.
Swimming for safety, knowing you'll drown.

Void of expression, inspiration,
Bitterly recalling past elation.
Nothing to live for, to ease the pain.
Pushed back against you, any gain.
Fearing rejection, stabbed by blade
Knife then twisted inside you, horribly slayed.

Excitement, joy: prices paid
Now ruling your life: fear of being afraid.