A/N: Hey guys. The last chapter was sad and so is this one. It was hard to write this one because me and Aimee had to think of the right things to put in his note. What I don't advise is go the same route as him. In real life we both wish that Marcus would leave, but we know it won't happen. Wait, that was mean. Sorry guys. Anyway. I had a little trouble with this one, but I am glad to get it up.
June 15, 2005 9:00 pm
Dear Journal, This is my last entry ever because i've decided to commit suicide. Yesturday was her birthday and I cried the whole day. My aunt and Tim left me alone. I didn't talk to anyone. I just stayed in her room the whole day looking at everything that she ownes. Things are so hard for me. I know that this sounds really lame to kill myself over a girl, but Aimee dying is only part of it. All these years when my parents got shot, me depressed, me almost loosing everything was just so much to handle for me. Her dying just made things so hard. She was my best friend and when we got together it made things even better because it was so much easier to talk to her. We did great stuff and she was the one that introduced me to Indonesian food. We made each other so happy and that ends now. I don't want to live without her. At least with both of us dead then we can be together, forever. For all eternity. She helped me through everything. When everyone left me when I was depressed she was there for me and when she was depressed I was there for her. When she had all the problems with her family I was there to help her through everything. She died a few days ago and i've tried living my life. I even went to the funeral, but it was so sad that I was crying the whole time and when I got home I started crying. If my aunt or Tim happens to read this or finds it with my body they'll know why I did this. I don't mean to hurt anyone and I know it's selfish, but i've lost so many people close to me. I can't stand to watch the people around me die. I don't want to live anymore. John is dead, Kate is dead, Corey is dead, my parents are dead, and now Aimee. I know it's weird to put in guys, but they were the guys closest to me. John and Corey killed themselves because they were so close to Aimee and loved her like a sister. This is so much to handle and I won't anymore. I've talked to Ashley and Chris and they said that they feel like dying too. This world is so hard. I went through the death of the ones closest to me many years ago and now I have to go through this again. A person can only go through something like this once and having to go through it a second time is even worse. Yes, this is my suicide note. I don't want to go through life depressed like this. No one will want to be around me if i'm like this. I wouldn't be able to find a girlfriend or anyone like Aimee. I know that it's impossible. No one will understand what's going on with my life. They will think nothing of it. Aimee was with me through all of it. I had a shoulder to cry on and she's had mine. Now I don't have that anymore. I have no one. The people closest to me are dead. I plan to end my life tonight I want to end my life as soon as possible. Good bye cruel world.
Marcus
A/N: This is the reason why there can't be a sequal. Sorry guys. R&R. One more to go and the suprise.