Room of delight – dance of life

The room is dark, hardly any light shines in there. The only light existing there is a silver shade, that should have formed something like light.
In this room a music is playing, and you're dancing...
Like many others you see, everyone in their own silver shade. You know they are there but you're not aware of them, neither are they aware of your existence.
You don't know why you're dancing, you just are. You don't know the steps, even though your body is making them without a doubt.

All this is shooting by when you finally find yourself really in that room with the music. But now there seems no one around, no silver shades that comforted you for all this time.
You know you should dance but your body seems to have forgotten the steps.

Panicking feelings rush through my head as all this seems to happen. Suddenly I am the one, sitting in that room not knowing what to do. The music is no longer comforting, it's making me feel useless. All the other lights are no longer existing, I am alone.

At the moment you thought you were alone, you knew you were wrong. Suddenly you seem to remember how to dance, and you do, you dance...

You know you're being watched, not knowing by whom, but it feels comforting. The rhythm of your dance becomes more and more equal to the music, and when it reaches harmony you think you should feel perfect. One part of your body feels perfect, but there are still parts missing.

I look around to see what's missing, the silver shades are back but still no awareness of what they might mean.

The feeling of being watched hasn't gone away, suddenly you feel more and more threatened by it, and the harmony of your dance starts to fade. You too feel this and you don't know what to do. The room starts to darken again.

I see the shades of light starting to disappear, thinking I don't want to be here. My body wants to collapse, but I want to keep going and I feel my mind taking over my body, for the first time I feel awareness of existence.

Your mind wants to keep those shades of light, they comforted you, even though they were always distant. With your mind you try to remember the steps but you feel that it isn't working. But by doing this, the shades don't go further away. That's why you keep dancing hoping to find back the harmony you once had.

When I was so desperate of dancing without knowing if it would make a difference, something changed. My surroundings start to lighten up, some of the weight is lifted from my shoulders.

One of the shades suddenly became clear. It formed a light, so warm and friendly. It came to you and taught you how to dance. It is dancing next to you and to you, it feels like it is meant to be, that it shouldn't change anymore. Again you were wrong.
While you and it are dancing, your dance is harmonious and great. But slowly it is separating itself from you. It doesn't go away but the connection between the dances is lost.

At first it felt horrible to be alone again. But suddenly I saw that it wouldn't leave and that it would always be there, when I needed it. When I look around the room is filled with shades again, some lighter and closer then others and some become one, while others are separating, just like it and me.

To some of the shades you feel connected, to others not.

One of shades you seem to like more, no, you feel connected, your body dances in the rhythm of it's dance. You dance in harmony with each other without your shades even connecting. You don't know why but you dance slowly towards it, to fuse, and be one forever.
At that moment you felt great, all the fear and threatening feelings have gone.

He, this person, he is the one who has been watching me.

You dance with him, and he dances with you. Now everything feels perfect, now with shades around you, and that one that you need with you.

Now I can hear the silence like I never did before, even though the music is still there, now I know everything is going to be alright, because this dance is the dance of my life, and I will always be dancing through good and bad times because I know I will never be alone...