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Perfection
I'm sorry I can't be what you want
I'm sorry I'm not perfect
I'm not smart enough, good enough
Pretty enough, popular enough
Nice enough, happy enough
I'm not what you wanted me to be.
I'm sorry I don't do what you tell me
I'm sorry I argue
I'm sorry I hurt you
I'm sorry because I try so hard
And yet, it's never good enough.
I try to be perfect
I try to work hard
I try to think before I speak
-And before I act-
But no matter how hard I try
It all comes out wrong.
I say the wrong things,
Do the wrong things
I can't help it
I'm clumsy, I'm stupid
I'm ashamed of myself
I'm sorry I can't make it right.
I'm sorry I can't make myself perfect
Maybe I try too hard
All I ever wanted was to make you proud
To have you smile at my jokes
And think about my ideas
And listen to me…
Just listen.
But it's too late
You've given up on me
I've given up on myself
I hate it, it's wrong
I don't know what to do
Because you're not coming back
You've never had faith in me, you never will
I don't know what to do without you.
I guess I'll just go on
Trying to be smarter, funnier, better
Trying to be the best
And never quite getting there
Never quite reaching perfection.