Such is the story in my head

What I've seen

Has blinded me

From ever seeing your faces

I don't want to look anyway

To see me in your eyes

Scared and shattered

They say I'll died for you

And for freedom

And for country

But we both know

It's not true

I'll die for nothing

And I'll kill for much less

These stained hands

Colored russet red

Dirty

The life of others

Drained all around me

Death and bile

Where can I go from here?

I know that

I'd rather die

Than let you see me like this

Scared and shattered

Stained and sinned

Left lifeless and drained

On a battlefield

That meant nothing to me