Sometime in December
While shopping at the local mall
A new mother, as she tends to her new baby
Gets a sudden, unexpected call.
5The phone breaks apart as it hits the floor,
startling her as she realizes she dropped it.
People stare all around her as she tries to hold herself up,
grabbing her baby's stroller for support.
"Ma'am," the store clerk interrupts her racing thoughts,
10"Are you alright?" he asks. She turns and leaves
the people watching wondering what happened.
Home alone, now she sits on the edge of her bed
That was once warmed by her husband, now dead
Two cars, colliding, took him away from her
15Along with three others, and no one knows what to say to her
The newborn baby cries, but she ignores it, unable to move
She knows what will end the pain
An important decision needs to be made
She cuts the straw in half - and breathes
20She cuts the powder into thirds - breathes
She pulls back the pretty blonde hair that once
flowed past her beautiful smile - and breathes
"Why has it come to this?" she thinks,
her life planned out, now only a dream
25And digressed to buying happiness from a bum on the street
Of course, he knows happiness, that she believes.
Now, with the straw to her nose, she breathes again
Through her nose this time - and it stings
But she does it again
She feels like giving up (the baby cries again)
The cement fifty feet below looks so close - but like heaven
So unattainable, but like heaven, the ground below is so far away
But it only takes a second for her lifeless body to reach it.