I chose to forget,
To move on from that place,
Bar it from my mind,
It only comes to me in dreams,
So vulnerable as I sleep,
It is only then I see your face,
Only then I hear your words, feel you touch,
However ghostly it is now, it still hurts,
You made me what I am, but do not be proud,
Dysfunction is my whole existence,
I hurt, I harm, I hate,
I hate you,
I hate you for everything you ever did, and ever said,
I hate you for making me feel this way,
I hate you for breaking every trust I ever had,
But most of all I hate myself, for letting you break me,
I chose to forget, I choose to be blank,
I desire my freedom from your ghost, your shadow,
I want some peace, some space to dream,
But most of all, I want to live.