Not Deep Enough To Feel

There's a silence in the darkness
Kissing me sweetly
There's a blade within the shadow
Whose touch is ecstasy
There's a coldness in the night
Wrapping me close

My blood is pouring faster now
My vision's whiting out
Am I worthless now
Why can't I forget about the pain?

Still not deep enough to feel
Why can't this blood be real
Still not sharp enough to kill
Why must I live this way

I see a black void deep in my soul
I know there's nothing good within me
I see the breaking of the whole
I know just how shattered I'll be

My blood is pouring faster now
My vision's fading to black
What am I but nothing now
Why can't I just take my whole life back?

Still not deep enough to feel
What's wrong with me
That I'm not real
Still not deep enough to feel
Why must I live this way

My blood is pouring faster now
My vision had turned to dancing sweetness
What is there but emptiness now
Why can't I succumb to the darkness?

Still not deep enough to feel
Why am I so broken
Still not believing it's all real
How have I been broken
I'm broken
Broken

And it's still
Not deep enough to feel.

-sin sin-