Apology

From Sky Solasti to Dylanae SummerStorm.

v.v

If I could hold you in my arms
One last time
If I could cradle you close to me
Just once more
I would be forgiven
But there is no mercy in you
Not for me
He who deserves no mercy.

If I hadn't been wrong to hurt you
I'd beg
And if I hadn't broken you as a matter of pride
I would take up on my knees
Until the hate between us died
But I know that the pain I have given
Will never be healed by groveling.

If I could show you how much I love you
And have you believe...
If I could take back the selfishness of centuries past
And bring you back to me...
But I fear my hypocrisy too great
My heartlessness on a scale with your own
Yet where you desire no forgiveness
I long for it with everything I have ever been.

It is too much to ask
That you let me prostrate myself before you
And it is too much to ask
That you forget the pain I have dealt you
And it is too much to ask
That you might find a place for me in your heart again
And it is too much to ask
That you open yourself to my love once more

If I could dispel all your hatred like mists before the sun
And keep you safe
From all the devils of nightmare
It would still leave you with the memory
The pain
Of my betrayal.
And every moment since I turned on you
I have wished I had not
In but a moment of anger
I lost something too great to comprehend
Too large for me to ever
Ever
Make it right.

If I were a god and had all the power of the universe
I would turn it to you
So that maybe
I could, in your eyes
Redeem myself.
It is too much to ask for forgiveness, I know
And too much to ask for a second chance
But I wish I could
Because I love you.
The place in my heart where you should be
Alive, and pulsing
There is nothing but cold emptiness
And the shattered I wreaked upon you
Is returned to me through this black void
Through pain.
Does pain repay pain?
For if it does I shall take upon myself such agony as I have never dreamed
For you.
Does emptiness solve emptiness?
For if it does I shall fill my soul with the Abyss
For you.
Does hate count against hate?
For if it does...
For if it does, I shall crumble
For I cannot hate you
Merely myself.
And wish
That someday
Maybe
Love can repay love.

It is too much to ask
For your forgiveness
So I shall offer my sorrow
My regret
Knowing that it is not enough
And never expecting it to be
But hoping against all hope.
I love you...
And I am sorry.

-sin sin-

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