USED

By: Elizabeth Scott

I fucked you over
one to may times,
now I feel like I have been convicted
and punished for my supposed crimes.

I asked you to wait,but only one week,
but apparently it was to much
because now we don't even speak.

You got someone new,
even before the wound was opened
long before it was healed.

I tried to wrap my brain
around the fact that you moved on,
I think I get it now,
the you are really and truly gone.

I miss you
like the desert misses rain,
but now I get it,
at least you can no longer cause anymore pain.

I reject the last statement
I purge it because it is no longer true,
when I saw you with Tiana,
I just knew I still wanted to be with you.

I was jealous
I wanted to rip her heart out
I wanted to scream
and shout,
because in that moment
for the first time my mind was clouded with doubt.

So now I am confused your words say
one thing and you actions another,
I just don't get it,
could you really possibly love her?

when we talked not but three nights
ago
you said you had loved me so many times,
you just had to let go.

I am hurtin,
more importantly I feel confused,
isn't that the way you spouse to feel
right after being used?

its wrong,
Its sick,
that you could play this age old trick,
but after all it is your choice,
so pick.