2"Only Maybe If..."
Maybe I didn't treat you with as much respect as I should have. Was what we had really turning that bad? I think that maybe it was and I just couldn't see the reality. Now, I'm stuck and can't move on and can't forget my past I still want to talk to you, but I realize that I never did know who you were. You even told me, but I failed in listening to you. Now, we're apart, but I won't ask another guy out, not until all my past feelings for you are gone. This won't just happen in a day. Maybe in a few months or years. I can't look at other guys and say I like them now, I learned the truth about them. I never judged upon just looks. I soaked up my tears and moved on with silence being my guide. I'm falling apart from the person I used to be and its for the better I think. I never meant to cause you the doubts. You were the antidote that got me through. I'm sorry about any pain I may have caused you. These thoughts of us in the past, just won't fade...Away.
3/30/05
My own personal thoughts combined into a poem/story.