The Only One Who Can…And Must
She looks so happy. To live with saying goodbye to her and breaking her dear heart. Breaking her heart. That phrase repeated over and over in my mind as I walked numbly up to her.
"Hey…" I greet her softly, as normal and kindly enough like I usually greet her online with. But, not too much to make her feel too comfortable. I was about to break her heart.
She turned around and hugged me, happily. She beamed, "Hi!"
After our little hug, I pulled away and looked into her joyful eyes. They were so bright and caring. So loving… I couldn't believe that I was doing this, but I had to. I am the only one who must and can.
"I have to tell you something…" I whisper, hesitantly. I looked down at my shoes and I knew she sensed that something was wrong.
She immediately touched my shoulder tenderly, face filled with concern; eyes directed right on me. I couldn't believe I had to do this. But, it was the only thing to do.
I inhaled and exhaled. My lips parted and I finally spoke. "She finally accepted me and likes...We're together…" I tell her, my voice breaking. I continue to stare at the floor.
Instantly, her hand slipped from my shoulder and she looked right past it. I was sagging and slumping a bit, because that's how I was…and this situation even added to it.
"Oh…" She whispered. I knew she understood who it was. We never really spoke of this topic, only at the beginning of our days when we got to know each other.
"I'm sorry." I tell her, unable to look up. She was a bit shorter than me, but I felt so little and beaten.
"I don't know what to do or say to you…" I whisper to her, hoping it would break the silence.
"I hope you're happy together." She tells me, with every trace of sadness. I didn't know what she was thinking and I didn't ever over all of those times we talked. I knew she thought of herself as annoying to me, but…I really don't know what to say. I just had to focus on her, right now, at this moment.
"Uhm…" She whispers, sadly, "Goodbye…" She walks away in the opposite direction of me while I stand there, sagging and numb.
I did it…But, it was nothing happy to celebrate. I told her, and now…I'm with the girl whom I've always loved. But, I had to break a heart on the way of success with that relationship. If I didn't break her heart, I'd be so grateful, but it was most likely not.
I won't ever know what her thoughts were or if I damaged her heart and her whole self…
-Her Point of View—
I walked away. Right away from him. From him…The boy who…I liked from the beginning of this school year. From the boy whom I ever really liked. The boy who I had my first, real feelings for. The boy I actually hugged and talked to. The boy who I believe that I annoyed. The boy who…I thought was my everything. He was the boy that I thought would never be mine because of our differences. Our age, our grades, our distance. It doesn't make a difference now. They're together. They'll be happy. The boy who all my friends pushed me toward and wanted me to hug so they could see me for a cute show. He was the boy that I desperately wanted and needed. The boy I never really knew, but he was the boy who I knew I really liked.
And…I walked right away from him. Away because he was with her now. Away because he never returned my feelings. Away because there was no other way to be with him. Away because…I only wanted happiness for him.
The boy that I fell in love with.
Author's Note: Well, this was yet another one of my one-shot, short stories. It never happened, but I all imagined it in my head. It was an idea inspired by the events happening right now in my life. I am that girl…The girl who supposedly loved that boy who had broken her heart…I hope this doesn't ever happen. But, it is one of my fears. I wrote this short story with all of my heart and thoughts. Please review, because…It's my heart and my fears of this love life I feel…No flamers. Thank you.