I lose sleep because of you,
Or even someone related.
Two and a half years ago
I locked you away and waited.
For the pain to stop
And the fear to cease…
The tears and the cigarettes
To help me find my release.
I fucking hate you,
Now, more than ever,
Because you cannot go away.
You're in my head forever.
More pushy, more hurtful,
More mean and revolting.
You still fucking rape me…
My body wakes jolting.
Get out of my mind,
Leave me to sleep,
Leave me to live,
Leave me to weep.
Let me move on.