2Trying My Best
When I was younger, I used to wish to have a different last name so that my classmates wouldn't make fun of me. People who bullied me would go to the sink and make spitting noises which sounded very much like my last name, Pui. It was awful.
Now, some people still make fun of my last name but I've learned to stand up for myself and ignore them. In fact, my last name is now how most people identify with me. My last name is not very common so many people just call me Pui and I don't mind at all. I don't wish to have a different last name anymore. It is part of who I am.
I am living together with my mother and brother in Malaysia. My brother and I study in an international school. My father is working in Taiwan and my elder sister is studying in Kuala Lumpur. So it is just the three of us living in a house. Often it can be hard and lonely but we've managed this way for five years. My father only comes home once a year. He would like to come home more often but because he is a doctor, not many holidays are available. Things would be a lot easier with him around so I admire my mother for her courage and patience.
I used to think that I would be a doctor like my father because I know that it is what he wants. I like science but it is not something that I enjoy or have a passion for. What I really love is dancing, reading, painting and writing. I've thought about it: What kind of job can I get if I want to write?
I've told my parents that I want to write, but my mother said that I need to earn some money before I go for that profession. But what if I can earn a living just by writing? I know that it doesn't matter what kind of career I am pursuing, I still need to put all of what I've got into it. So I won't give up on my desire to write, no matter how many people say that it won't promise a bright future.
I first began to like writing when I discovered a website called: . This is a website where people could post stories based on characters of animes, games, books, movies or cartoons. In the beginning, I just read the stories. Soon I realize that many of the writers who had posted their fan fictions there are very talented. They can really write. So I decided that I should give it a shot as well.
I started my first fan fiction without much planning; I kept changing the plot of my story. In the end, much of storyline became twisted up and confusing. Luckily I went back to edit it, so it is much better now. Reviewers would give me comments about my grammar mistakes and my sentence structuring problems. They would also tell me what they like or don't like. I really appreciate them for it.
I've just started another fan fiction and this time round, I've learn from some of my mistakes and this story is much more popular than the first. Still, I have much to learn.
I enjoy writing. I like being able to use words to create impossible plots or to describe intense emotions. When we write, we can manipulate how we want the sentence to be like as long as it is correct. We can use words to emphasize on certain feelings or to create suspense. It is a joy; a gift to be able to express ourselves through writing.
By reading other writer's stories and comparing the various ways of writing, I try to improve on my own writing and make it more likeable to read. There are still problems with my writing but I try my best to correct them. Sometimes I overlook mistakes which are very obvious.
I still do not know what I would want to do in the future. I think it is best try to do my best in all the subjects in school so that I can have more options when the time comes.
I try my best to be a good human being and not to lose my temper so easily like before. But I am not kind to those who are selfish, who don't care what they say or do might hurt others. I also dislike my own faults and my laziness. I want to be more determined and to have a stronger will to succeed.
What I like is spending time in bookstores or the library. Being surrounded by so many books makes me happy. I also love Japanese Animation and my favourite animation is Rurouni Kenshin. The Japanese manga-kas(cartoonists) can really bring the characters alive and give them a lot of depth. It is somewhat similar to writing, except that the characters in a manga are more visualized. Writing leaves more to our imagination.
Right now, I like writing the most. I will just try my best and continue to write, no matter what.
A/N:This is just an essay on my thoughts on writing and my future. I hope to be able to be accepted into a writing workshop with this essay, so if you have any comments please tell me. Tell me if there is any grammar mistake or sentence structuring problems, any error at all. So that I can improve and be a better writer.
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