I never realized

How much I missed

The way you laughed

As you told

Ridiculous

Made up stories

Of real life

Incidences

Your hair blowing in rhythm

With the whistling wind

Humming a tune

Of never ending happiness

That ended just too soon

Don't make me cry for you

When you know I can't bear the pain

Don't wrap me in your arms

When you

Suffocate me

Casting shadows

In my mind

Flipping backwards into

Light

But I'm not sure if it's

Light at all

Artificial

Halogen lamps

Blinding

What was really ever there?

Dark

Darker

Darkest

Or

Light, lighter, lightest

It all depends on

How you look at it

But

Doesn't everything

Whether it's the

Worst pain of

My life

Or the

Best time of yours

Whether it's all part of some

Sick twisted

Black blood reality

Or

Just destiny creating another

Illusion

That

I fall for because I'm

So gullible

And I'll sit here and believe that you

Loved me

That

You cared that

You were really ever there

But

I know that

You never were or

Were you

And I just didn't notice

Didn't give you a passing glance all the times I

Couldn't take my eyes off you though

No one noticed

And maybe you didn't either

But god I noticed you

And

I miss you