3Watashitachi No Ai
-Another quiet day
Another sun rises
Another moon sets
Another tear falls
-We've been through this before
The pain
The Joy
Hope...
-It's raining again
Thunder and lightning flood the skies
And there you are again
Searching for me in the vast forest
-A shadow comes near you
You see it and think it an illusion
How wrong you are
Your mind is fogged
-For your foolish behavior,
I shall have what I want
Do what I want
Can you stop me?
-As lightning streaks the skies again
I extract my own flash of silver
Do you notice it?
Will you in time?
-I hear your silent scream
The silent sound of metal leaving your skin
Your life dripping
From the very wound I've created
-You stumble
You fall to the floor
The pain is unbearable, isn't it
Will you be able to let go of the past now?
-'Does it hurt now?' I ask
You don't speak an answer
Your cries and screams is all the answer I need
I laugh into the darkness of night
-As I kneel beside you,
The sweet aroma of life fills my senses
Everything around me becomes clearer
How I live this moment
-You reach out for me
And I foolishly go to you
You whisper into my ear
I smile at your question: Why?
-Typical question
Complex answer
I look into your eyes
You're so beautiful
-As you cry
One tear is crimson
The other crystalline
Why haven't I noticed it before?
-I lean into you
I capture your lips in mine
Despite your life leaving you
Your lips are warm, soft
-This isn't an exchange of passion
It's for hope, fear, understanding
The pain, the betrayal
Unanswered questions
-Our love isn't typical,
Nor is it understandable
It's on borderline of something else
It's confusing as hell
-Once your arms cling to me
I bring you into an embrace
You kiss back
You still have strength, amusing
-Yes, the most meaningful
And yet meaningless kiss
In this life time of mine
I warned you though, yet you accepted
-Your breathing quickens
Ah, yes, you are dying
How silly of me to forget
I pull away from your kiss
-I look at you
You're smiling
Saying you won't forget
You start to cry
-I tell you, you are foolish
You continue to smile
And speak those 3 words
'Watashi wa wasurunai'
-You become limp in my arms
One last chaste kiss
Your eyes flutter closed
Locking the light away forever
-You whisper my name
Something inside me breaks
It shatters inside me
There is pain
-I never said I was invincible
I know that I'm not
But never had I thought
You'd break through so easily
-I have tears of my own now
Why? I simply do not know
You did it to me
That much I know is true
-I feel electricity shoot up my back
It hurts now
Worse than what the others did
I reach for the source: found
-In your cold hands
Is a graceful blade
My blood has stained it
Yet the rain is washing it away
-I look to you
You are still smiling
Not yet dead, as you speak
'Gomen nasai'
-I take the blade and stab it through your heart
Why in the hell are you so different from them?
Yet so much the same
Why do I let you torture me so?
-What makes you so special?
Makes me want to hate and love you
Make you cry, smile
Give you everything that you need, want and more?
-There, you are dead now
You're not invincible either
But you thought that you were
Haa, yet again you amuse me
-I stand up
With as much will as I can muster
And I walk, and walk
Until I can no more
-It's a beautiful sakura tree
Even in this weather, it's fully bloomed
No petals have left its branch yet
It seems to be untouched
-As I walk towards it
The rain, thunder and lightning cease to exist
I laid you down with me and kissed the top of your head
Under the sunny sky as I speak my last words:
-'Never will I forget how much pain, anger, hurt confusion you fed to me
Nor the forgiveness, hate and laughs we shared
I hold you now, you belong to no one else
My proof to myself that I can love, hate and hurt one thing
-And they still love me
The most confusing emotion in the world'
I smile as I hear your laugh in the distance
'Eien'
Written: 31. January.2005
A/N:I really do hate the way that this poem format is set up x.x