Dear Diary,

What's wrong with me? Why do I always feel so fat. Why do I always complain to you. What's the matter with me. I'm so stupid. Mother calls me stupid all the time and I'm starting to believe that I really am. All I do is complain and get fat no matter what I do. I just don't know what to do anymore. And I'm starting to throw up my food. I'm not stupid enough to think that that has no consequences. I know what it does to people. But I do it anyway. I just want to be skinny. I want him to like me so much. He didn't even look at me in the hall today, even though he knows me. Why would someone do that? Or rather, not do that. I'm so confused. I don't know what to do with my life anymore. What should I do? I wish you could talk back to me. I wish I had a friend that could tell me what to do. But I don't, all my friends are dumb, they don't care about me, and they never will. I'll never get close to them 'cause mother never lets me have them over. She says she doesn't want them seeing what a pig I am..I hate mother so much. But I love her...And she must be right about me. I mean..I'm nothing. I'm just crazy Lilly...I hate myself...

Lilly