2-Shinjitsu-
Hitori-Hoshi
So you tell me
You wouldn't know what to do
If I left
Do you know what to do if I stay?
As the days pass by
As must as the Earth rotates about the sun
Tell me the truth;
Do you ever think of what would happen?
I can't say I love you anymore
I don't know if it's the truth
Sure I could lie to you, it's facile
Just not my style
If it'd make you happy
For me to lie
Then maybe I'd do it
But then again it doesn't matter
I sit as I wait for the day
To obtain the courage I wish I had
To carry out this yearning
To finally bind what I have began
End the suffering around me
Cause the confusion to halt
Words to cease
The flow of thoughts to stop
As I stand atop this tall building
So high up the winds whip
My arms outstretched wide
I'm waiting
This tall tower and its greatness
Must symbolize for something
I ponder as to what it could be
Somethings aren't meant to be figured out till the end
White clothe drapes over my body
Ribbons and linen
Silks and velvets
It's the mot optimal feeling
My eyes wander to the sky
I needn't look below me
For I already know that awaits me there
I've seen it all along
Silver tears streak my face
I'm not sure as to why
They haven't come to me for a while
Must be just because
As I eyes flutter close
A smile of utter happiness graces my features
Never again shall I be responsible for hurting those around me
Simply because I'll never wait to see what happenes
I make my own ending
My own fate
None of you can control me
Only have influence over how I think of you
Don't cry for me now that I'm gone
I know that you won't anyway
But I'm saying this, just incase
I don't want you to
I'm not worth it
As we all know this by now
It was a mistake in the first place
It shouldn't have happened
So if you think of me after this is over
And your heartbeat starts to accelerate and your eyes cloud
Just think that you aren't breathing from thinking of things you shouldn't
And your eyes are releasing those bad memories
Just don't do it again
Your body doesn't deserve it
Don't treat it that way
Just be happy
You no long have to see my empty smiles
Hear my forced laughter
Feel my hollow embraces
It's the truth I want; don't think about me now
You haven't all this time
So why wait till now?
Just live and be happy
I'll finally have a peaceful sleep