I just realised

That I still have feelings

For what I thought had passed.

But it hit me so fast

I didn't have a chance

To breathe.

And think it through.

But when I saw her

With you

My high dropped so low

That I didn't even know

What was happening to me

Or what a mistake

This could be.

Even though I was with him

My eyes wandered to you.

I couldn't keep wondering

What you were doing with her.

And at first it hurt

So bad that I smiled

To cover what I

Was feeling inside.

But I can't do anything now

Is there a point of no return?

Cause I just never learn

When to start,

Or when to stop

I feel like I'm falling apart.

Half with you,

Half with him,

The war I never seem to win.