Sitting, Waiting, and Wishing

I sit here in pain and I cry but nothing changes.
Sitting in this room, remembering the past
When I was free of this disease
When I could play and swim in the seas
Swim in the seas of youth and joy
Things have changed because of one boy
I hate that things are this way
I hate this each and every day
I wish I was with you all the time
But I can't always get what I want
I can't always think,
Can't always smile,
Can't always pretend.
But in the end,
I will for you.
Just don't leave me
Sitting, waiting, and wishing
Like he did me.