Forced to rememeber blocked out though

Then realizing the miracle life has brought

The miracle: I'm still alive

And in this world I have a chance to thrive

I didn't want to remember what I still saw in dreams

Which have caused me to wake up in screams

haunting memories of my lost father

Brings back the fear that I wasn't a good daughter

I remember my childhood as painful as it was

Me yelling at my brother, no reason, just because

The truth is he didn't deserve my hate

He was messed up too, never to be great

I remember those old cruel friends

They made my so angry, my hair split at the ends

I remember all this from the distant past

Forced into the forefront of my mind at last

I hadn't wished to remember, blocked it all away

But now that I look back, I wouldn't choose a different route

For I am lucky to be the person that I am

And I'll repay life by being the best that I can