Sometimes it crosses on my mind,
Bent back sideways, black and blue
Disaster's what you find,
When you see what's loving you.
Sometimes it hits my mind,
And that damned Achilles wrist
Finds itsself a way to anchor deep
Inside what shouldn't exist.
Sometimes I find
That in my mind
These echoes, and dreams
Are strong like wine.
And they hit me now,
Like a motherfucking truck,
When you've got me on the ground,
When you've stripped me of my luck..
And the self control's gone now,
The safehold's gone down
All I'm left with is bullshit
In this no-name town.
And the once so deep morals
Are flung out this door
I've degraded from your love
To a useless little whore.
And the temptation just hits me
And it finds all those places
Don't fucking bullshit me,
You can still find those traces
Of a day not so long ago
I felt just the same
And this guilt just won't let go,
Won't let me stay sane.
And I tried to live up
To your standards, your view
And I find that I'm just shit
Just a bitch with attitude.
And that'll never be enough
For such perfection like you,
As if you'd take the time of day
For my acknowledgements so true.
So fuck my self control, baby
Not like if even matters.
This boat is going down, baby
Not like I even matter.
Just tear my heart in peices, baby
You know you hate my guts.
Don't ever let me be your baby,
Self abuse is a must.
I tried to keep your confidence
But to your surprise, like it could even work.
And like the world's biggest barbed wire fence,
You've left me with some quirks.
Not even all the liqour, girl
Could drown out all this sin.
And the strongest drugs can't cure me,
From this cunt that lives within.
Not the deepest of your scars,
Or the prettiest of them all
I try to get to where you are,
I always lose my grip and fall.
It's as if the years gone effort
Just fall to peices now,
Am I a mistake, a mirror on the wall-
I'm just fucking rubbish to plow.
But I'm trying to hold on, now
For whatever the hell is left.
I know you won't forgive me,
No love for those bereft.
I'll try to buy your heart back,
And like me it'll always fail.
Just remember I kept my promise,
At least that hasn't fucking gone stale.