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A/N: Paris was great! Except when we got lost on the Metro. The film festival was fun and we got to go up the tower.

Enjoy the chapter. I personally think the endingis crap. The first section is a flashback.

Chapter 20 – Never leaving

Faith had wandered home after school. She had crept through the door, hoping to get to her room before anyone noticed she was back.

"Faith! Get in here!" She had winced at the noise. He had been drinking. It was so obvious. Even at fourteen she could tell how bad it was.

She walked slowly into the living room. Her mother was sitting in the chair in the corner. She looked completely unrecognisable from the mother she knew two years ago. She had never been the same since her new boyfriend had moved in. Thinking about it, Faith hadn't either.

"'Bout time," he muttered. Faith felt scared. When he called everyone into the same room, it meant nothing good.

"Why are you home so late?" he asked, words slurring so badly they were almost incoherent.

"I'm not," Faith said trying to hide behind her long brown hair.

"It's an hour since school finished," he said.

"I had to help someone after school," she said.

"Who were you with?" he asked, his voice sharp in contrast to five seconds ago.

"He's just someone who asked me for help in English," Faith said, resisting the urge to bolt from the room. It would be much worse if she did.

"He? You've been with a boy?" he asked. The tone of his voice made her realise she had made a terrible mistake. "You've been with a boy, after school without telling anyone."

"I was just helping him with some homework," Faith said panicking.

"You're lying," he snapped. "You're lying to me! Why are you lying to me?!"

"I'm not!" Faith said desperately, looking at her mother for help. She was staring at the opposite wall acting as though she wasn't there.

"Don't answer back! You're lying you little whore!"

Faith bolted to the door. An empty bottle smashed on the wall beside her. She shielded her eyes from the glass and felt someone grab her hair and drag her into the bedroom. She screamed, begging her mother, anyone, to hear her. A rough hand covered her mouth.

"Lying to me to see some boy," he hissed in her ear as he threw her onto the bed and began ripping at her clothes. "I'll teach you to lie to me!"

He did teach her. She learnt that there was no limit to which he wouldn't go. She learnt that her mother wasn't going to protect her any more. She had never felt so helpless, or in pain. She felt dead inside.

A hand stroked her hair. She sat up and she began to cry as Colin hugged her tightly.

"I don't…"

"What?" Colin asked pulling away.

"I don't lie. I wasn't lying," she didn't know why she said it she just felt she had to.

"I know," he said, wiping her cheeks. "I know. What he did was wrong. You didn't do anything wrong."

"I did," Faith choked. "I should have left earlier, the first time it happened. I should have told someone. Maybe it would never have happened."

"Shh," he hugged her again. "Maybe it wouldn't. Maybe it would have happened anyway. You couldn't have known. It's not your fault."

"I didn't know her," Faith said. "He broke her down. I never knew her after he came into our lives. Why couldn't she have been happy without a man? Why didn't she see what was happening?"

"She probably didn't want to face the fact that she had made a mistake," Colin said. "She didn't want to accept that she had put you both in that position."

"I loved her," Faith whispered. "But when she met him she was a different person. She died when she met him. I didn't know her any more…"

"What happened after you left?" Colin asked.

"I walked here," Faith said. She was talking slightly more confidently now that the worst part of her story was over. "It took me days. We lived on the edge of town. So I came to the centre. As far away as I could from home. I was walking around one evening when I got chased by Ivy's gang. They cornered me."

She shook again. "It was like him all over again. Just when I thought I'd got away, it was happening again. That was when I knew, I would have to hide it. If I acted like it never happened, I would forget about it."

She swallowed the lump in her throat. "Todd and Row got me out of there. And I started living with them. We had a few more people stay with us over the years, but people came and went. The cops got them. Ivy's gang got them. Some of them left without a word. We made our money. The guys would steal from houses. Sometimes we did cars. When we could, we'd go to buildings that were on fire. We could look around without anyone there."

"Then you got caught stealing from my brothers car," Colin said. "And it happened all over again."

"Row knew," Faith said. "I told her when I first started staying with them. She found me one day, looking at the photo I had. It was me and Mum, before it all happened."

"Had?" Colin asked.

"Lost it the other night," Faith said. "When the place got incinerated."

She stared at the covers. He stroked her hair, comforting her in whatever way he could.

"I started singing again after that," Faith said. "It was a way of expressing myself. I'd stopped after it all started. I wrote the songs instead. That was when I wrote my own."

"The one you were singing last night?" Colin asked. Faith nodded.

"Yeah. Some people at school helped me write the music. I wrote the lyrics. I've still got the music sheets. After everything, I still remember the lyrics."

She smiled slightly. "I was going to sing it tonight. Y'know, since it's my last day at work."

"You can knock them dead," Colin said. "I wonder how Kyle's going to react when he realises that the sales are going to drop once you leave."

"They won't," Faith said. "They've got plenty of singers there. Losing one of them is not going to change anything."

"But none of them attract the crowds that you do," Colin said. "I went to get the financial records for the club, the day Ben tried to steal my wallet. It's a fact, out of the last three years, the club's been making more money since you started working there last summer."

"Now you're exaggerating," Faith said.

"I'm serious," Colin said. "Everyone loves you there! You're a bloody good singer."

"Maybe," Faith said. "But singing won't get me money."

"You'll find another job," Colin assured her.

"Doing what?" Faith asked.

"There are other clubs in the city Faith," Colin said.

"Yes but you're forgetting," Faith said sitting up again. "They're all owned by your family."

"Well maybe being friend with the boss's son helps," Colin said.

"Why would you bother for me?" Faith said. "No one else does."

"Not everyone knows what a great person you are," Colin said.

"Mmm, but everyone's going to know that Kyle hates me," Faith said.

"What Kyle doesn't know won't hurt him," Colin said. "And I know which clubs he doesn't visit that often."

"You're sneaky," Faith said.

"I know," Colin smiled.

"You're sneaky," Faith repeated poking him in the side.

"You're worth it," he replied.

"I'm not worth risking your family's wrath," Faith said.

"Yes you are," Colin said. "You're worth every second I have to put up with them."

"How can I be worth it?" Faith asked. "Your family is worth more than me. They're at the top of the food chain in society. I'm below working class."

"Class doesn't matter," Colin said. "Money doesn't matter. Not to me at least. They haven't got to see you the same way I have. They don't see who you are Faith. They don't know that you're a brave, wonderful person."

Faith turned to face him properly. "What are you saying?"

"I'm saying," Colin was staring straight at her as he spoke. "That you are worth every second, because there is no one else I'd rather spend time with."

Faith felt light headed as Colin moved closer. They were inches apart. She couldn't stop staring at his eyes. They had some powerful hold over her that she couldn't break. He pushed back a strand of hair from her face. His hand left tingles on her skin. Her breath caught in her throat as his lips moved closer to hers.

Someone hammered on the door.

"Faith! Its half past eight, we'd better go!"

Colin swore. Faith glanced at the clock. Sure enough, it was half an hour until her final evening at work.

"We'd better get going," she said quietly. Colin was running his hands through his hair.

"Thanks for talking to me," Faith said.

"Faith I…" Colin seemed lost for words.

"I know," she said. "I need some time Colin." She sat down again facing him. "Just give me a little while to think."

"Faith! Get a move on! Or we're going to be late!"

Colin nodded. Faith smiled slightly and hurried to the door.


"I will go down with this ship,

And I won't put my hands up in surrender,

There will be no white flag above my door,

I'm in love, and always will be.

I will go down with this ship,

And I won't put my hands up in surrender,

There will be no white flag above my door,

I'm in love, and always will be.

I will go down with this ship,

And I won't put my hands up in surrender,

There will be no white flag above my door,

I'm in love, and always will be."

Pure emotion was all anyone could feel from Faith all night. When she had arrived backstage at five to nine, the rest of the performers had immediately begun to ask her if it was true that she had been fired, and which point she had corrected them that she had in fact resigned. All the other girls had started to cry. She had checked that the boys in the band had the music to her songs before waiting for her cue.

She had caught sight of familiar faces as soon as she had started to sing that evening. Colin and the rest of her friends (including Mandy and Amy, who had shown up to watch) were all glaring evilly at Kyle Stratford, who was obviously there to make sure that Faith left at the end of the evening. As if to add extra authority, he had dragged his father along as well.

"Some authority!" Row had scoffed, when Faith had gone to sit with them during her break. "A sixty something year old who doesn't remember your name and looks so out of place in this club that it's funny!" She had been careful to look directly at the Stratfords table and talk rather loudly so that everyone in the vicinity would hear and understand her. Some people on the nearby tables were sniggering in agreement and Sebastian Stratford looked highly affronted to be insulted by someone of a lower class then him.

Five minutes later, Kyle had strode over to tell Colin that their father wanted to speak with him. When Colin's glare towards his brother yielded no response, Faith decided to jump in.

"Kyle how can I put this politely? Fuck off. And tell your stupid father the same thing."

Kyle's response had been to glare at her. Faith had thought for a minute he was going to hit her. His fists certainly clenched tightly. However it seemed he was not stupid enough to try anything in a public place.

Now at five to two in the morning, Faith was preparing for her final song. The club was still full. A few of the other girls had spread the word around the bar that it was her last night, and it seemed everyone had stayed to listen to her.

As soon as she walked on stage, everyone fell silent in anticipation. The band started up. Faith felt happy memories wash over her as she heard the music that she had written so long ago and not heard for ages except in her own head. Everyone in the audience was watching and waiting.

"Looking into my heart, cold and empty of life,

My spirit is broken, pain inflicted by time,

Words of hurt, words of love,

Rip at my soul, tear it to shreds.

Can't close my eyes, can't close my mind,

From the pain you left in my heart.

Catching my words, in an everlasting song,

Hiding the fear, deep in my soul,

Save your lies, cease control,

I don't care anymore.

I'm bordering on fear, the line of no return,

Cause I'm hiding my eyes, protecting my true love,

Deceit and death, and pain and hell,

Surround myself, tear me to shreds.

Can't close my eyes, can't close my mind,

From the pain you left in my heart.

I'm catching my words, in an everlasting song,

I'm hiding the fear, deep in my soul,

Save your lies, cease control,

Cause I don't care anymore.

I'm catching my words, in an everlasting song,

I'm hiding the fear, deep in my soul,

Save your lies, cease control,

Cause I don't care anymore.

No escape out here, from the life in there,

Will I ever be free, from the hate that I see,

Will there ever be, another like me,

All the memories I hide, are broken up inside,

Forever more…

Catching my words, in an everlasting song,

I'm hiding the fear, deep in my soul,

Save your lies, cease control,

I don't care anymore.

Catching my words, in an everlasting song,

I'm hiding the fear, deep in my soul,

Save your lies, cease control,

I don't care anymore.


For a second, there was complete silence in the club. No one moved or spoke. Then everyone in the audience broke into applause. Several of the guys began to catcall and Faith allowed herself to smile at everyone. Singing had cleared her head. She knew what she was going to do.

Backstage, all the other performers were hugging her and saying how much they had loved the performance. Faith fought her way to her dressing table, and picked up her belongings as Colin hurried in. The other girls filtered out slowly as Mr Hospich came in and told everyone that they could go. Colin had a smile on his face.

"What did you think?" Faith asked when everyone else had left.

"Incredible," he said. Faith smiled.

"I thought about what you were saying earlier," she began.

"When earlier?" Colin asked.

"When you said I was worth it," Faith said. "I thought about it while I was singing."

"What did you think?" Colin asked, taking a step closer. Faith felt nervous but she had promised herself that she was going to say this.

"I thought, there's no one else I'd rather spend time with either," she said slowly. She felt colour flood into her cheeks and she bowed her head.

"Faith." Faith felt a hand tilting her chin up. Colin smiled at her, his eyes never leaving her face. "Thank you."

Slowly and gently, he completed the statement. Faith's eye's fluttered closed as she felt his lips on hers. The world was calm and still. And more then that, Faith felt for the first time in ages, that everything was going to be alright, something she hadn't thought in a while.

Somehow, whatever happened in her life, she knew now that she was strong enough to face it. She was no longer alone.

Disclaimer: I don't own the rights to any of Dido's music. Everlasting song however, belongs to me! Its mine! All mine!

M/N: Right along with our author we decided against an epiloge because we thought it would spoil the ending. Sorry!

A/N: Sue me, shoot me, run sharp pointy things through me. Itsa really rubbish ending. Its meant to be mostly on emotion rather than what actually happens. Plus you all found out what happened to Faith which is what you have all been pestering me to tell you for the last five months.

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