22The rain came down fast like it was a race to see which rain drop would hit the ground first. I looked out the window taking a short break from starring at the computer screen; I had been sitting in front of my computer all weekend waiting to talk to Nick. Nick was my friend's older brother who had just turned 18. He was at school and we mainly talked online. It wasn't like we were dating for anything; we just enjoyed talking to each other. He had called me and we talked for a good 4 hours then he had to go but he promised that he would IM me. I didn't really have a social life anymore, I was tired of having to be happy all the time and make it seem that everything was okay.
The whole time I was "popular" all I wanted was someone who really cared about me not like the other guys I "dated." Dating to me was just going to parties, cheering them on at football games while wearing their jerseys, and hooking up with them. It was boring, don't get me wrong I love being popular but something's missing and that void was filled when I started talking to Nick.
Nick was 6'2, had jet black hair, the hottest blue eyes, built like a movie star, and was a sensitive. He didn't treat girls like toys that could be replaced at any minute; the whole time I knew Nick before he graduated he had about 5 girlfriends. He was always studying or reading something every time I was over at his house hanging out with his sister Lucy. He was a smart jock only playing football for a scholarship to the school of his dreams. He was a great football player and loved playing the game and in all actuality we would have made the cutest couple, him being the football player and me being a cheerleader it would seem only right that we dated. But we didn't because of his sister my best friend. She always felt that her friends were only her friends only to get to Nick but I was different because I was actually her friend before I developed feelings for Nick.
I had a feeling that Nick had feelings for me also by the way he would always go out of his way to see me during school, after practice, and after the games. While at his house he would always get me anything I wanted but we kept our feelings hidden from each other for the sake of Lucy. But then she started catching on to us always smiling when one of us entered the room or how Nick did things that were just not "Nick" as she once said when she thought Nick had a girlfriend. Either of us knew what she was talking about because at the time our feelings were still hidden.
The day she finally figured out that we had feelings for each other was quite funny. We were sitting at their kitchen table enjoying pizza when she stood up almost causing her chair to crash to the floor yelling "I've got it!" We all looked her oddly as she looked back and forth between me and Nick. He looked my way asking me with his eyes if I knew what she was talking about, I just merely shrugged and went back to my pizza. After her parents had left the room having a business dinner to attend she sat across the table from us.
"You two have feelings for each other." She looked up from her pizza starring at our shocked faces like a secret of national security was just leaked out.
"What are you talking about Lucy?" Nick asked getting serious in the face and his voice showed no emotion.
"Come on Nick, its sooo obvious that you have feelings for Summer."
"That's stupid Lucy." I stated both of them looking at me. "I mean I'm your best friend and he's your brother that would be weird." I laughed trying to cover the whirlwind of emotion I was going through.
"I think its cute."
"You do?"
"Yeah I mean you guys would make the cutest couple."
"We would?" We asked in unison surprised that both of us were thinking the same thing.
"Yeah, now I have a date with Anthony so you guys sort out whatever's "not" going on." We watched her leave the room leaving an awkward silence to fall between us. I stood up from the table gathering my plate and glass as I did. He just watched as I threw my plate away and left the room going to find my keys. He followed me into his sisters room just watching as I gathered my stuff from the sleepover we had had the night before not saying a word until I was half way through the door.
"She's right."
"What?" I dropped my stuff and turned to face him.
"I do have 'feelings' for you." He said feelings with air quotes as to state some point.
"Really."
"Yeah I do and I think we should explore these 'feelings' before the end of the summer."
"Sure."
"That's it?"
"Yeah."
"Okay so what do we do from here?" I just shrugged as he helped me bring my stuff back into the house.
"Let's go watch a movie in the living room or something."
And that day started us hanging out almost everyday last summer until he had to leave for school and I had to start cheerleading. It wasn't that hard saying goodbye because we weren't really dating each other. He was free to see who he wanted and I was free to see who I wanted but I didn't feel right seeing other guys when I only wanted to be with him but I didn't tell him this because I didn't want to sound like an immature 17 year-old.
I was brought out of my memory when the sound of someone IMing me scared me. It took me awhile to answer because I was trying to catch breath from being scared. I looked at the screen and saw his screen name on the screen it brought an instant smile to my face.
rbstar: hey
musicalchick17: hey
rbstar: what's up?
musicalchick17: nm
rbstar: how was ur weekend?
musicalchick17: u kno, cheerleading on Friday, shopping on Saturday, and homework today
rbstar: sounds like fun
musicalchick17: oh it was, so how was the game?
rbstar: we won by 1 touchdown
musicalchick17: that's great, so how's whatsername?
rbstar: she's fine
musicalchick17: things goin' ok?
rbstar: its hard with classes and everything
musicalchick17: oh
rbstar: how's steven?
musicalchick17: over
rbstar: really? what happened?
musicalchick17: we didn't click
rbstar: oh
musicalchick17: so what's new
rbstar: nothin much, just classes and stuff like that
musicalchick17: oh that's nice
rbstar: somethin' wrong?
musicalchick17: nothin u need to worry about
rbstar: come on tell me
musicalchick17: don't worry about it, its just personal stuff
rbstar: does it have to do with me?
musicalchick17: maybe
rbstar: summer what's wrong?
musicalchick17: u're not my bf so y do u care?
rbstar: i do ok? and what do u mean i'm not ur bf?
musicalchick17: u have Erica and i'm just a "good friend" so yea
rbstar: what's wrong?
musicalchick17: nothing! god damnit!
rbstar: relax
musicalchick17: don't tell me what to do
rbstar: I'm not telling u i'm asking you
musicalchick17: w.e.
rbstar: summer what's wrong?
musicalchick17: nothing
rbstar: i gotta go but can we talk later?
musicalchick17: u always have to go so ya know what, don't come back
rbstar: summer plz
musicalchick17 has signed off.
rbstar: great.
This will mainly be told in letters, IMs, and texts. I hope you like it I'm just trying it out. R&R!