Sometimes I get tired of being
invisible.
There are benefits.
No one sees you
No one expects you to talk.
But no one ever says
You're good at that.
Or
You look nice today.
Instead they look through you
and notice the color of the wallpaper.
Sometimes it makes me crazy.
I want to scream
Notice me.
The wallpaper's nice, but so am I.
I'm here. I'm not invisible.
Just hard to see.
But I never do.
On the whole,
you get used to it.
On the whole,
being invisible is
safer
than being
alive.
After all,
I don't need anyone but me.
I don't need you, or you,
Or you, staring at the wall.
If I needed you, you'd see me,
Being alone is safe.
Being invisible is safe
Besides…
being invisible is getting easier…
which scares me.