I cried while I was kissing you

but because your eyes were closed

you couldn't tell and I wouldn't say

so you would never know

and I knew that as soon as it was over

it would be just like before

as if nothing had ever happened

as though we were nothing more

and when you ran your fingers through my hair

and held me close to you

I tried to forget the pain I felt;

the pain that we both knew

the tears started running down my face

and I had to control my heart

because if I started sobbing then

it would drive us further apart

when you walked me home you held my hand

and I smiled like I always do

And though you would not know it,

I had cried while I was kissing you