Help

Here I am yet again
Crying because of what you had to say.
It's what I need to hear.
Though I weakly rely on comfort from ghosts to keep me alive,
I could be strong.
If only I could walk away like you did.
You tell me I don't need anyone,
In the same breath confessing you have no one.
But as I sit here,
I find myself beginning to wonder.

Are you trying to help me or hurt me?
Heal me or kill me?
I can never decide.
Once I make up my mind.
You contradict yourself.
But either way,
Thanks for putting me through this help.

Well, screw this, you bastard!
I don't want you or the things you tell me.
You want to see me through,
But you refuse to hold my hand when I walk through the darkness.
This darkness that
Was created by you and your words.
You turn away while it swallows me up again.
As I fall down,
I find my mind searching for an answer.

Are you trying to help me or hurt me?
Heal me or kill me?
I can never decide.
Once I make up my mind.
You contradict yourself.
You kiss the wound
While planting your dagger in my heart.
You twist the blade.
Say it will be okay.
And either way,
Thanks for putting me through this help.

When I reach this point again,
I refuse to cry as you try to teach me with pain.
I can see now,
All you did was hurt me each time we spoke,
Plunging me into this agony.
So now I am strong enough to walk away like you did.
Like you promised, I need no one.
I leave you in the darkness you buried me in.
But as I walk away,
I find myself beginning to wonder…

Were you trying to help me or hurt me?
Heal me or kill me?
I could never decide.
Once I made up my mind.
You contradicted yourself.
For through the ache.
You made me strong.
So either way,
Thanks for putting me through this help.


This is an old song that I posted before but no one reviewed it and I've changed a few of the lines since then, so I figured I may as well just delete the old one and repost it. It's one of my favorites and I hope someone agrees.