Small waves of an intrepid design
The increasing palpitations of a wilting heart
This cannot continue
It's far too dangerous
For a heart that has lost this much blood
This much feeling.
Ever since he turned you away
Claimed that you were sub par
After so much careful planning
After so many attempts to comfort him.
You choose to believe his words
"It's not that I don't want you…
I don't want anyone right now"
He didn't seem so opposed to the girl in the short skirt
Perched provocatively on his knee
Chewing like a goat on his lip.
God, it became so raw, started trickling blood
This was supposed to be sexy?
This is what he wants…?
You try to run it off.
Circling around the same dimly lit path
Again and again…
Waiting for it to change
Pleading, bargaining with it
To lead into another's arms
To take you somewhere where you're wanted.
Each pounding footstep resounds throughout
Your body, your mind.
Each one squashes another petrified figure
Of the one who made it hurt
The one who left the invisible scars
That dug so very deep.
Maybe if you change your hair…
Maybe if you flirt just a little longer…
But, no, he's gone, stripped of the throne he sat upon
In your mind.
Reduced to the status of any other peasant
Begging for forgiveness.
But you won't grant him any reprieve.
Your sprint falters as you stumble over a stone
A perfectly smooth black rock
You were waiting for a sign
Something magical
All you have left is a stone
That reminds you so much of your soul.