Not How I Thought

The day has ended not how I thought

Once the thought of black and white crossed my mind

The blackness of separation, deserted from each other

The pure white of love, of togetherness, and of happiness

But Shades of grey do exist, we can travel through them

The day has ended not how I thought

Once the thought of unfaithfulness crossed my mind

The heathen woman who have done it before

The ease of getting away from the stigma without a real relationship

But there are other reasons not to date one who you truly care for

The day has ended not how I thought

Once the thought of unfairness crossed my mind

The pain of carrying all the burden and strife

The aggravation of giving everything but getting nothing

But that is why people talk, and people listen, and why I care for you

You hate it when I get angry and yell at you

You hate it when I corner you and force you to listen

You hate it when I tell you I'm doing it because of how much I care

You love me and will help me make this work

You love me and the thoughts of grey, of unfaithfulness, of unfairness leave me

You love me but you need a little more time to come back to me

Sometimes love is clinging on for dear life

Sometimes love is letting go

I must learn that last lesson

And you the first

We can learn together