My Life Inside And Out

Lying in my death bed

So many things I haven't said

To vanquish all my nightmares

I dare wait for my conviction


Beneath my skin

Oh god it's happening again

I'm freezing up and down

The chemicals they're pulsing into me

Outside I'm pure

Inside I'm bleeding


One soft hymn

My mother whispered to me

Where do I begin?

To lose a life I haven't started yet

And will I always regret this

Never believing

That what she said is true

I'll always love you


Beneath my skin

Oh god it's happening again

I'm freezing up and down

The chemicals they're pulsing into me

Outside I'm pure

Inside I'm bleeding


She could have been the one

If only I had the time

She could have been the sun

And me her night


But I'm dying

How can I admit

So finally to this?

Without my first kiss

I'll never make this


Beneath my skin

Oh god it's happening again

But is this the end

No more chemicals for Ben

And now I see

It's to real to be

My life