4How Could This Happen To Me?
"I want to die, I want to die" chanted Amy as she got up from the bathroom floor and placed her hands on the sink and looked in the mirror. Her mascara was smudged from her several hours of crying. She cupped her wrist; the blood seeped through the spaces of her fingers. She didn't realize how deep she had cut herself.
3 Months Earlier
"Amy, Hurry you're going to be late!" yelled Amy's mother, Marie. Marie was a photographer and very into her work she spent night and day in her office and barely saved any time for her family which consisted of 15 year old Amy, 12 year old Sandra, and Chris, Amy and Sandra's father. Chris is a psychiatrist who is also very into his work but very nosey in Amy's also.
"I know Mom, Don't worry I'm out the door right now!" Amy screamed as she walked out the door. Amy was very pretty yet very unsocial; she only had a few friends. She never tried alcohol or drugs of any kind and never planned on it. She was an A student and worked very hard at her goals.
"Hey Amy, Can you go to the mall with us today after school?" asked Amy's partner in crime, Melanie.
"Hell Yeah! I'm ready to get my shop on," Amy said with a chuckle.
"Who says that?" asked Kylee; Amy's other partner in crime.
"Your right, but no seriously I need some new kicks" Amy stated as she headed towards her locker.
"Finally!" screamed Melanie as she climbed into her 1997 white cavalier. "I'm so happy school went by fast!"
"Agreed" stated Amy as she put her seatbelt on.
Amy, Melanie and Kylee made their way to Pacsun. Something caught Amy's eye, she stopped in front of a pair of neon green flip flops "I wish I had enough money to buy these" Amy said with a sigh as she turned around she bumped into this really tall good-looking guy.
"Whoa, sorry!" said the guy who patted Amy on the shoulder.
"Oh, That's okay. It was my fault, I'm really clumsy" Amy said as she got ready to leave the store, until she felt a hand grab her.
"The name's Ryan, and what's yours?" Ryan asked as he smiled.
Amy started looking at him, his smile was so adorable. "Amy" she answered.
"Well, Amy, your pretty hot" said Ryan as he put a sports magazine back on the shelf and was walking to the exit of the store. "Ever been to a party before?" Ryan asked.
Amy thought for a minute, she's never been to a party before or atleast a party that Ryan was talking about. "Sure, I'd love to go" Amy said. Then she thought for a minute again, should she take Kylee and Melanie with her so nothing bad happens? She figured that would be a good idea so she told Ryan to hang on for a moment and made her way to Kylee and Melanie standing by the water fountain in the middle of the mall.
"Oh my god you guys guess what just happened?" Amy asked very eager to tell them.
"What was that? Hey, we have to go soon I have to make a few stops before our way home" Melanie insisted as she turned and was about to walk away.
"Wait, no guys why don't we go to a party tonight?" Amy asked.
"And whose party are we going to?" asked Kylee as she scuffed the mall floor with her boots.
"His name is Ryan and I just met him, by accidentally bumping into him on our way out, he's really cute and he invited all three of us back to his place were him and his roomates are throwing a party." Amy quickly explained, as she looked back at Pacsun Ryan was trying on a pair of sunglasses.
"Let me get this straight, some hot guys want us to go to their party?" Kylee repeated "Hell yeah, let's go!" as she started her way back to Pacsun in Ryan's direction.
Melanie grabbed her arm, "Uhh, Excuse me but you got a ride in my car, and I don't feel like breaking curfew over a guy" Melanie said as she looked at Ryan, Amy and Kylee stared at her. "A very cute guy, but listen I cannot get into trouble again I have been in so much shit for the past 3 weeks." Kylee and Amy made a hmph "You guys if you were my friends at all you'd say screw this and leave with me right now."
Kylee and Amy looked at each other for a second and Amy said "Fine, We don't want you to get into trouble so we'll see if we can get a ride with Ryan or something."
"Are you kidding me? I'm responsible for you two, I'm supposed to bring you home, what's going to happen when you guys' curfew comes around and your parents don't see me dropping you off? That'll be my fault, hence the part were I don't wanna get into trouble," Melanie said starting to panic.
"Well, then if you want to be a party pooper Mel you go right ahead. This is our chance to finally go to a party, have we ever been invited to one? No we haven't." Kylee said, getting very impatient.
"No Ky, she's right we don't want her to get into trouble, I mean it's not like we stuck up for her or covered for her when she snuck out," Amy said as she started walking to the towards of the exit of the mall and then stopped. "Come on Mel, you wanted to leave, put a little hip into your hop."
Melanie sighed "Come back, I'll go with you."
Amy gasped sarcastically, "Really? Awesome thanks Mel!"
Hand in hand Amy and Kylee walked back to Pacsun when Ryan saw them he put the shirt that he was looking at down and said "So, you ready Amy?"
"Yeah, but is it a problem if my two friends come along?" she asked.
"No, not a problem" Ryan said as he led Amy, Kylee and Melanie out the door of Pacsun and into his 2004 Dodge Magnum.
"Wow Ryan, This is such a nice truck. I envy you" Melanie said as she felt the seats.
Ryan laughed and looked back at her through the rear view mirror "Thanks, Thanks a lot. So hey, do you guys smoke or anything?"
Kylee was about to say no when Amy butted in "Well, we don't smoke… cigarettes, but we smoke…"
"Weed?" asked Ryan
"Yeah, yeah, that's it," said Melanie.
Ryan looked strangly at Melanie who was sitting beside him. "Well, we have a lot of that at the apartment, along with some coke and alcohol, but if you want any special kinda alcohol tell me now and I'll get you some."
Kylee looked at Amy "Coke? As in cocaine?"
Ryan looked at Amy and Amy didn't know what to say she felt so embarrassed with Melanie and Kylee around, she was starting to think bringing them along was a really bad idea. Amy started laughing "Oh Ky, of course cocaine, don't be silly."
Kylee looked at Amy and pulled down her glasses to the tip of her nose "I wasn't trying to be silly I was trying to be realistic."
Ryan pulled in to a long driveway and then pulled up to an apartment complex. "I'm room 204 go find it and just knock on the door my roomies will let you in and I'll be up there in a minute or two."
Kylee looked at Melanie "Okay, I'm sorta getting a weird feeling about this whole thing."
Melanie nodded in agreement "Yeah, Amy let's go home." Melanie nudged Amy in the shoulder who was looking at a door, Melanie looked up you could hear loud music coming from the door and on the door it read 204.
"No, we've come this fair, I'm not leaving. We'll stay for 10 minutes then have Ryan bring us back to the mall and then go home, and we will still go to your stops Mel and be home in time before our curfews are past."
Amy opened the door and a young guy came up to her "Yeah, who are you?" he asked.
"Amy, and this is Kylee and Melanie" Amy said as she pointed to her two nervous friends. "I'm a friend of Ryan, he actually brought us here, we met at the mall."
The young guy smiled "Sweet. My name's Michael but call me Mike. So how old are you girls?" he said as he touched Kylee's shoulder "Your hot."
"We're all 17." Amy said as she looked around. She saw a bunch of girls with guys, she didn't see a girl in sight without a guy around her. Then she looked at a small table filled with a punch bowl, and some beer.
Mike looked at the same direction Amy was and said "Do you want one?"
Amy nodded and Kylee and Melanie followed Amy and Mike when they walked over to the table. "Amy, what… wh…" Kylee started to say.
"Look, its just punch, what can it do?" Amy said.
Mike had a sly smirk on his face as he passed her a cup with some punch in it.
Ryan came around to Amy "Hey! Are you having fun?" he asked.
"Oh Ryan, I'm having a blast thanks for inviting me," she answered.
He leaned down by her ear and whispered "It's kind of loud up here, why don't we go to my room and talk for a bit where it's not so loud?" he asked.
Amy thought for a minute then smiled "Alright, that sounds fine." Amy turned to Kylee and Melanie who were standing by the wall surrounded by a bunch of guys. "Hey, I'm going up stairs with Ryan to talk cause it's so nosey down here. But I'll be back soon, I'll stay up there for like 20 minutes tops, are you two okay down here."
"Umm, Amy I don't want to be here anymore if your not coming with us were going to call a cab now," said Melanie as she grabbed Kylee by the hand. "Coming with us?"
"You guys are such losers, I don't even know how I'm even friends with you, why would you want to leave this party it's so much freakin fun! Just stay, please?" Amy asked.
"No, were leaving good bye Amy have fun with your new boyfriend" said Kylee as she pushed a couple of guys away from her so she could get through.
Amy walked back to Ryan who was now sitting on the couch surrounded in smoke. "Don't worry about them, Amy if they were your true friends they'd stay and party with you. I'll find you some new friends."
I laughed and then immediately stopped and thought, what exactly am I doing here? Everything this party represents I said I would never get into.
Ryan got up and hugged Amy and passed her a joint "Here, this will make all your trouble disappear."
Amy looked down at the joint