I am made of

Raspberry lip gloss smeared across a swollen mouth. that. paints his body with the blood that drips from the wounds he inflicts

.&.

He drowns me in his aggression as bras and pants fall to dust at our feet

& his destruction was always heart splitting

( .beautiful)

And the ache in my skin is scraped off again by his (in)toxic(ating) scent.

xoxo

I am made of

Secrets that aren't really secrets at all. but. They remain buried in my dreams

& they reach out charred hands to caress my face

I'm paralyzed. stuck. in. bottomless. tar.

.&.

They shove me towards screaming sirens until I'm splattered against penetrating stone.

xoxo

I am made of

movement and spirals of smoke that dribbles from my mind and encircles my throat

Coating my lungs that breath so strained in choking imagination

.&.

I'm. never. free even though I sweat on my life to be

& she sees me and laughs at the white powder chains around my smile.

xoxo

I am made of

Clouded vision and words floating with intensity on the edge of insanity

"& don't ther-rape-me," I can whisper through the iron walls of my delusional discomfort. maybe. you're blind. but. they can stare through 10 inch deep fear.

.&.

Don't diagnose the panic in my eyes.

just

just

just… walk away.