I don't want to be here.

Here is not safe. Here will hurt me.

Here is a place of pain.

But I can't escape it.

I can't go there,

Because there is no place for me to run to.

Forced, I remain and bear my burden.

And when no one can see me,

Tears fall from my eyes and blood from my arm,

And this way I escape, for a while,

I am safe, nothing will hurt me.

And when I return from my pilgrimage,

I face the bad places, forever longing to go away.