I don't want to be here.
Here is not safe. Here will hurt me.
Here is a place of pain.
But I can't escape it.
I can't go there,
Because there is no place for me to run to.
Forced, I remain and bear my burden.
And when no one can see me,
Tears fall from my eyes and blood from my arm,
And this way I escape, for a while,
I am safe, nothing will hurt me.
And when I return from my pilgrimage,
I face the bad places, forever longing to go away.