I bite my tongue

Trying not to scream

I see the face in the mirror

Is it really mine?

All I see is agony

No smile

No light in my eyes

I try to forget what just happened

But I can't

I look down and see the deep red

Seeping through my shirt sleeve

I lift it

Wipe away the blood immediately


In amazement I stare down at my hands

Stained with blood

I hear a knock

I hear a voice

I press a rag to my wound

I look around for a clean shirt

The knocking stops

All of the sudden I feel more pain

An excruciating sting


Than when the blade was slicing

Through my sweaty skin

I feel as if I wanted the knocking to continue

So I could open the door

Show them my wounds

Show them how I feel

Hoping that they would understand

But I know that they could never understand

The depression is overpowering me

I'm suffocating in sorrow

And I don't want to talk about it

I need to breathe

Breathe the normal air

That everyone else breathes

Was there ever a time when I was sane?

When I was normal

I can't remember

I don't want to remember

All I want to do is