I can hear your sandals coming
From miles and miles away
Your stride makes evident your move
Sometimes you come too fast
And I fear I'll be found out
But as luck has it
I'm saved at the last moment.
Lying in my bed
I hear your shrill voice call out
Dread surges through my body
Like electricity through a cord
Sheer panic sprints up the ridges of my spine
For the tone of your voice
Wields a heavy façade
Choked by uncertainty
Blinded by apprehension
I play out all the worst case scenarios
Like a broken record in my head
I try to plan ahead
For when I turn the corner
The look on your face
Is enough to make my heart stop
I search a guilty conscience
Wondering what the punishment for independence is
Oh, what a price to pay
For a simple mistake
Nightmare filled sleep
Tossing and turning until my muscles ache
Tangled in the sheets
Are the broken shards of a dream
A dream of freedom lies out of reach
And the willpower to make it through
I can only hope that one day I'll escape
And embrace myself as a whole
No longer torn to pieces by this
Mentally induced phobia
Of you