4/8/06
I'm About to Break
This is what I hate about not being at schoolNot being able to see you
Inside I'm screaming…no one hears me
Putting up a face for others so they don't question me
Waiting for the cover of night
I hold back tears wishing you could hear me
Calling every possible number
My heart beats faster as my fears grow
This feeling I had was right…as it's always been
Why does a part of me feel so dead?
Like I'm numb and trying to get myself alive again
Wanting to scream hurtful words to anyone who gets near
I bite my tongue to hold back those words
I just can't hold out any longer
Aching heart…screaming mind
Why is this hurting me?
But I miss you so much…
Years it seems since I last saw or talked to you
I know I'm exaggerating, but what else can I do?
Why does this blood have to be bled?
Why do the cuts go so deep?
Leaving deep scars that will keep
Killing myself with each stroke at a time
Pushing back the emotions bit by bit
Soon to be a hollowed out shell
What was once me is now gone
Cause the pain is getting to be too much
Very soon I will break from all this stress and sadness
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