3/16/06Painful Memories Depression and jealousy is clawing at my heart again Inside I'm screaming…shouting for the madness to stop
Past memories come back to haunt me
Tears are coming, as that familiar pain is once again present
Why do I feel so ignored and jealous?
Why am I so god damned possessive?
Things I tried so hard to forget come back
Hit me hard draining my will to go on
I scream in agony…
Doesn't anyone hear me?
Why does my pain always go unnoticed by everybody?
Don't you see the struggle in my eyes?
The way they dim and the sparkle dies
The once happy aura gone
No one sees…no one feels….
What can I do? What can I say?
How can I explain?
I have no words to describe why I feel this way
Its reminding me too much of past memories
Don't make me face hell again
Where is my salvation?
My heaven and haven
Why don't I get a moments peace?
How could I ever say what I feel?
I never have enough time to tell you
There's never a moment where we can truly listen to one another