STRESSFUL SUMMER NIGHTS: (6-19-06)

This is what best friends are for

But why am I not showing any emotion towards her except for anger

Why do I care that she has decided to take the next step in her relationship with

the guy that she is in love with?

Why do I even bother rushing to her house to comfort her with Cold Stone and Movies?

Maybe he hasn't called her

But I know for a fact that he will

Because that's who he is and that's what he does.

He's her 'perfect' boyfriend who took her virginity.

At least I think he took her virginity…

That's something we've never really discussed.

There are a lot of things we haven't discussed.

But that's because we never really talk.

But when we do, I can't show emotion.

I only stress.

No anger….just stress.

No happiness…just stress.

No confusion…always confused.

And stressed.

About mostly nothing.

(Nothing that matters, of course.)

Because no one listens until it is about them

And even then it's too late.

But this is what best friends are for.

To comfort and to rant.

To cry and to smile.

To worry and to stress.

To fight and to be angry with each other.

For a little while.

But the love is still there…and I still love her. She is my best friend.

Where would I be without her?

Who knows?