I want to be alone- no longer amongst people,

to be away from the pain,

the disappointments,

the hurt.

I want to be alone- far away from here.

Just shut myself away from all that can hurt.

Hide away from those who made me cry.

If I could, I would run away to somewhere distant.

Somewhere I can only dream of.

Somewhere that exists only in my mind.

Trust is a fairy tale parents tell their kids,

not something practiced in everyday lives.

Betrayal and hurt is reality,

something that happens everyday.

Even though I know I exists,

even though I already expect it,

it doesn't stop the tears from burning into my face.

It doesn't prevent my heart from shattering into a million pieces.

But it does make me question the next person;

to mistrust everyone.

I know it encourages me to feel bitter,

jaded,

angry;

to not feel the closeness of another person,

to hide my soul.

Protect it.

For there is only a little left anyway.

A life like this-

secluded,

afraid;

I would rather death.

I would be alone anyway.