How can I feel like this when I act so happy?
How am I supposed to be so perfect when I am so screwed up?
Why should I do the things I do to help others?
Why am I pulling myself down?
I thought I had it all figured out,
That I knew what to do with my life.
But you came to me and threw me off.
You awed me and made me wonder.
How can I live without love?
And how have I done it so far?
Am I a loner who doesn't understand anything?
Was I completely wrong?
You tantalize me and make me do
Things that I would never dream of.
You make me stop worrying that something
Will go terribly wrong.
Should I listen to you or me?
Will that change my life?
Which one is the best for me?
Can I really know or tell?
I am drowning in life,
So far under that I can't be saved.
I cry for help, for love, for life,
But you cannot hear me.