Down In Flames

I'm grasping for something

That I can't quite reach

I've many questions

And their answers elude me

Don't know what to do

Oh, Father help me

So many feelings

So many loves inside my heart

Father, how can you be asking me to choose?

I'm listening to hear your voice

Yet eerie silence ensues

My head is filled with other noise

In the chaos your words are lost

You love Me, I know

But you made me this way still

Awkward and floundering

Not knowing who I am

So help Me Father, Hear my Cry

The tears pour down my cheeks at night

I'm so misguided

So Misled

Is this how you made me?

Do you want me to change?

Anxiety kills me

My worries never cease

My sadness knocking at my door

I'm drowning in confusion

Just trying to stay afloat

The ray of hope I cling to

Is fading fast away

So throw me out a line, Lord

Reel me safely in

I need so many answers

I'm searching so hard

Only you can save me

From the fear that overwhelms

I'm begging you to Speak

For I will listen

Always you have loved me

And I know you always will

I doubt not your promise

But will others like me still?

Is this your plan?

If so, Father, Why?

Wrap me in your arms

Keep me close by your side

Because you're the only one

Who fully knows my heart

If you need to Lord,

Tear my world apart

Reshape me so that I am clean

And pleasing in your eyes

There are days I stand so tall

I feel I walk so close

Some days I sink into the floor

Into the dirt below

So pull me close today

Hold me in your embrace

The answer that I search for

I can't find in your face