remembering; flash back
to seconds in a crowded food court
as giggling she kissed him-
those seconds burnt
into her brain
calculating words
she never should have said.
With a razor in her hand
she seals the deal
-. c.-

another drama queen
on the edge
of sanity's last breaking;
her eyes lock on his face
for just a hated instant
and silently, a black parade
decking in her tears-

pitied stares
as she hurries to an exit.
OH, the irony
this halls holds memories
of grinding hips
of clashing lips
or stifled moans
and so the old cliché goes;

remembering; flash back
to hearts drawn in thin air
to hands gently brushing away hair,
to spelling mistakes
to constant heartbreaks;
your wondering why
i just cant forget you,
your completely over me
i wish fairy tales would come true.

But theres no happy endings
to tagedys; right?

thats quite ok, don't want him back. not anymore; funny thing, i almost went insane in that relationship. Not being able to see or talk to the boy you love.. its hurts. But he had a life, we were no longer living in the same world. I tried my best to make him happy, but i only fucked us up. guilt and loneliness kept me locked in that moment of time when he made me the happiest girl in the entire world; but then, i forgot about all the bad times. The good times defiantly dont weigh out the bad times. It's a pity, ive changed so much, but way to late. But thats alright; whatever. Ill get over it. I've got a man, i've got someone who loves me with EVERYTHING he is, who puts me first.

So. This is it. im saying goodbye to WHAT we couldve been, and saying hello to the things i know me and him will accomplish.