26sitting in a chair by the door
waiting for her to come home
from her date
with Mr. I-can-lift-you-show-off
and when she does
quietly coming through the door
no smile on her face
and when the door closes behind her
she turns
puts her forehead to the door
says aloud
"I'm so stupid"
I look over my shoulder
through the window
and see the truck still parked
unmoving
him in the front seat
smashing his head down
on the steering wheel
looking back to my sister
I see silent tears
flowing down her face
silent sobs make her back shake
and I stand
walk to her
turn her
ignoring her surprised face
I hug her
her head settling on my chest
shoulder too high to reach
but her tears soak my sweater
as I whisper
"It's alright, it's alright
just calm down
tell me what happened
do I need to beat him up?"
she lets out a strangled
sob racked laugh
as I push her to the chair
I had been sitting in
"Deep breaths,
it's okay
I'm here
What happened?
Are you hurt?"
shaking her head forcefully
her breath became hiccupy
and the tears stopped flowing,
although a few leaked
from the corners of her eyes
she must not have worn makeup
no streaming mascara
or blacked out eyelids
"no one loves me"
her voice was a whisper
dying off in the end
and the tears started anew
as she push forward
into the circle of my arms
it felt kind of awkward
holding my crying sister
whispering
"I love you"
and the laugh came
strangled
like before
but stronger
"you're my brother"
I looked over her head
currently pressed into my
chest
saw his truck
unmoving
saw him
unmoving
staring into space
he looked like he was dead
I gave Amy one last squeeze
before standing
walking to the door
opening
and stepping out
knowing her eyes
followed every move
I walked down the porch steps
across the drive way
throwing open the door
and climbing in
slamming it behind me
we sat straight
not looking at each other
"do you love my sister?"
a pause
"yes"
I threw him a sharp glance
"Why is she so upset?"
He threw me
a confused glance
pondering, he said
"cause, she found out
I love her?"
now I was staring at him
"you guys make no sense...
love makes no sense"
I threw myself out of the car
to the house
and through the door.