Where the hell do I go from here?

The world is taking me away
Pieces of me are disappearing
And I don't know where
To find them.

Sense of dignity
Feeling of security
Intelligence
And Beauty
Gone up in clouds
of Purple Smoke.

The world is playing with me
The purring on my lap
And the ring on my finger
Tell me
The world isn't so bad.

Tell me
Where to find
Those things that I lost?

Tell me

How to forget
Those things long gone?

Lingering pain
Of loves long lost
Paths I've sought
And those
Who would not rescue me
From purple inhalation.

Who will stop me now
From listening
To what the world
Tells me?