Everything has been so empty in this room,
I can't feel your touch now,
I miss the way you used to hold me,
And keep my head up through all of the dilemmas,
But now, your not here,
And it's all so confusing.

I used to believe that all I needed was you,
That you could be my air,
When you went away,
It was like I was suffocating on a fill-in oxygen,
And I didn't know how to react,
So I panicked.

But now, I know that your not my air,
Now, I know that you never even cared,
Now, I know you just kept me around,
For fear that I would crash to the ground.

You was right.

Sometimes, I still have dreams about you,
And I wake up so confused,
But, now I have better things in life,
And I no longer need you.

You hurt me more than anyone has,
And I don't know if that's forgivable,
I've bled so much,
And cried so much,
You've made my life unlivable.

You've spread your lies around the world,
And now, no one looks at me the same,
I just don't understand how you could do this,
After everything that we had,
But, I suppose that people change,
For better, or for worse,
And I guess it just so happened to be the second with you.

Dig your dirt,
And make this worse,
Call me names,
Take me in vain.

Psychopathic episodes have followed me through this trial,
I didn't know if I would see the end of them,
But, I made it through all of this,
With absolutely no thanks at all to you.

It just drives me crazy,
Because, in a way, I still care,
Even though you've cut me deeper than a bullet could shoot through,
I can honestly say that there's a chance that I'd forgive you,
And, it's just complete heresy against my feelings,
But, I can't help it,
Because, you made me feel understood,
And made me feel so safe,
But, when you left, all of that security just went away.

What we had was like a sweet dream that I thought would never end,
But, we're young, and we make mistakes,
I guess you were the first of many too come,
But god knows that I learned more from you than I could anyone else in the world,
I'll never forget those lessons,
If I live for a million years.

In a way, I actually feel like apologizing,
Even though it's ridiculous for me to think such a thing,
Because, what you have done will scar me for so much longer than anything I may have left on you,
And, I hope you realize that,
And lie awake at night wondering if I'm okay.

I swore when this first happened that if I had a gun with two bullets I'd end us both,
But now, I wouldn't even know what to do with the thing,
Or, if your name would even come to mind.

It's so sad to watch everything that we had fade away,
But, I guess it's for the best,
What we had wasn't natural,
And it should, and shouldn't, be put to rest.

You was the most beautiful thing that I could ever imagine,
It's just so strange that it's all gone now,
And how much you've betrayed me.
I just want to ask you "why?".

I wonder now what I was at all to you,
If anything important,
Because, you seemed to care so much at one point,
But, then, you lied, and I wonder if you was lying all along,
And just playing it out like an act or some sick and stupid game,
Maybe, that's all it was to you,
But your sick, because to me, it was everything.

I want to do so many things to you at this point,
I want to scream at you, and make you realize what exactly you've done,
But, it wouldn't matter,
Because things should probably just stay how they are now,
And life's a difficult thing to change when it comes to emotions,
So, I'll just leave it be.

I wish I could say that I wish you the best,
But, I'm still hurting, so I don't,
Instead, I wish you all of the torture that you've brought me,
And so many things much more than that,
But, good luck with your failure,
One day, I swear you'll look back and regret this,

I swear I'll make you regret it.

Look at me,
Everything was once for you,
But now, I'm not so sick anymore,
And I swear I'll never be that way again.